Well, after all my ramblings about how I wouldn't care what people thought about me, here I sit with color on my hair. All so I can get a job working at fucking Radio Shack or something.
I think it's so sad that, in 2010, people are still so offended by unnatural haircolors that companies have policies against it. My green hair wouldn't have had a thing to do with how I did my job. And I'm worried about what's going to happen to my hair, because it's so weak, but I'm having to bleach out the green before I can color over it (I have black dye but I'll be damned if I have monotone hair that isn't a real color) or at least tone it- which hopefully this red-pink toner is going to save me the trouble of doing.
I realise that it's kind of ridiculous to tie my identity up in my hair so much, but you have to understand- the color was the only thing I liked about it. I hate the cut (too damn short), I hate the damage, I hate all of it. Except that wonderful blue-green. And the fact that I'm having to hide part of who I am in order to find work is sickening.
I tried to cover it with a black semi-permanent, but it always turned a dark bluish-gray and then rinsed out in three days. So I'm having to use permanent dye, which I am allergic to now (why do you hate me so, Universe?), in order to cover it.
On top of that, I probably won't be able to at least comfort myself by using my more bright and/or dramatic eyeshadows because that frightens the punters as well. It's not like I'm asking them to wear it, it's just something that makes me happy. Is that so wrong?
I've never been what others would consider "normal". Every since I formed my own personality (sometime around the fifth grade), I started getting treated like a freak. And that was before all the haircolors and the makeup. That didn't start until my senior year of high school.
Last week, my mom and I got into an argument. I was trying to get out of the house to talk to some people about a job, and she started bringing up everything I've ever done wrong in my life. Things I still feel terribly about. And she mentioned my first job, at Publix, and I said I'd rather kill myself than put myself in that situation again. That she probably didn't remember or care about how much that job really messed with my head and killed what little confidence I'd had. Then, out of nowhere, she made a very cutting remark about how I've "always refused to fit in" and that, basically, it's all my fault when people look at me differently.
Now, I'll admit that bright colors catch people's attention. But that's not why I wear them. They make me happy when absolutely everything else is killing me inside. So do my piercings and my tattoo. They make me feel like myself. My natural haircolor is so ugly, like dirty dishwater. And my eyes are blue and gray, and I'm pale. I look muted, almost faded without something to cut down all the boring. God forbid I shouldn't want to look at a 50% gray image.
If blonde highlights and an Orange Julius-colored fake tan make you happy, great, but that's not me. Never has been, never will be. And I shouldn't have to apologise for that.
UPDATE! Some of the black dye bled onto my little blonde streaks in front, giving them a sort of grayish-purple tone. Damn it.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Monday, September 13, 2010
Oh, my God you guys.
I got more ideas. This is getting flippin' RIDICULOUS.
Damn you, inspiration. And you, too, lack of time. Gahhh....
Damn you, inspiration. And you, too, lack of time. Gahhh....
Friday, September 10, 2010
About my lack of posts...
I'll get around to it, one day, I promise. I've been so busy, trying to get settled in and finding a job and whatnot... But I've been doing it up every day and taking pictures, so I'll have a lot to show you at once!
I've worked out a few little designs, including one inspired by the Queen of Hearts and one inspired by Bjork's look on the cover of her album Homogenic, and maybe a couple with more of a Bat For Lashes feel to it.
I dunno. I'll post soon!
I've worked out a few little designs, including one inspired by the Queen of Hearts and one inspired by Bjork's look on the cover of her album Homogenic, and maybe a couple with more of a Bat For Lashes feel to it.
I dunno. I'll post soon!
Thursday, September 9, 2010
A few of my favorite things!
I thought to get things rolling I would post about some brands I've tried, what I've got, and what I like about all of them, along with some lines I'd like to try.
1. MAC
I know, I know, everybody and her grandma has at least one MAC thing they Can't Live Without, but I've fallen so in love with the few things I have that I actually want to work for this company. I'm trying to put together a portfolio to give them along with my resume. I have three eyeshadows: Beauty Marked, a brownish coal black with red sparkles, Idol Eyes, a silver with gold and violet shimmer, and, my favorite, Creme de Violet, a bright pinkish violet with gold sparkles. I also have Cyber, an extremely deep purple lipstick, and two Super Dazzleglass lip glosses in Cherry Electric, a bright pink with multicolored sparkles, and Fab Frenzy, a deep purple with multicolored sparkles. I haven't worn Cyber or Fab Frenzy yet, since they're not really good colors for summer and I bought them in June, but everything else I've worn with pride and I've been very happy with them.
Edit: I just bought the Viva Glam lipstick in Gaga and I LOVE it! It's such a pretty pink and it looks nice with my skin. I also got to look at the Fabulous Felines collection and saw a Dazzle lipstick that I liked (it was clear-ish and had iridescent glitter), and I'm signed up for a little Villainous Vixens demo!
2. Urban Decay
I'm a huge Urban Decay fan. The color payoff is always so great and they have some amazing products. My favorite thing is probably the Deluxe Eyeshadow in Graffiti- green is my favorite color next to black so you'll see a lot of it. Just a warning. Anyway, I've used their shadow primer and it was good, but the wand would get sort of grayish after a while (I don't always manage to get all my makeup off, but mostly what gets left is eyeliner and mascara smudges). The pallete, complete with a mini tube of primer and two half-sized eyeliner pencils, that I bought around Christmas was great to have- if I'm just going somewhere for one night (don't get any ideas), I'll just bring that, along with mascara, eyeliner, and a couple different kinds of lip things. Convenience is awesome.
3. Too Faced
I'll admit, I haven't used too much of this. The first time I ever tried it, I was in Birmingham with a friend for the hair show a year ago. She had their Glamour Revolution pallete and when we checked in, I took a shower and asked if she'd let me try on some of the colors because I was in love with it but I didn't have any money- I was unemployed and don't have a rich family like her. So she hands me the box, and I tried (and, eventually, bought) Label Whore, brown with blue and green shimmer and iridescent sparkles, with Neptune, shimmery bright teal, on top of it. I can't remember what I used on my brow bone, but it was a shimmery nude. Looked great with my Led Zeppelin shirt.
Since then, I've also tried their eyeshadow primer, which I love. I don't put on eyeshadow without it. It gives you a bit more control because it's in a squeeze tube and you can just spread it on your eyelids. I plan on trying more things later on- I almost bought some Lava Liner but didn't have $18 to spend (hooray, unemployment!) so I bought some at Target instead.
4. Mica Bella
For those who don't know, mostly these guys sell out of kiosks in the mall. I've bought four shadows- Daydream, my favorite, a sheer white with red, gold, pink, and orange shimmer, Royal, a deep, intense blue with purple shimmer, Patience, a plum with pinkish-purple and gold shimmer, and Indulgence, a super-sparkly silver. I also, at one time, had their foundation, but it was WAY too dark, even being their lightest shade, and their blush. So I passed those on to someone who could wear them and kept the eyeshadows.
5. NARS
Too expensive to buy all that often, but GORGEOUS. I have their Angel Heart blush and highlighter set, because it's light and I'm pale so I don't look like I got shot in the face with a paint gun when I wear it, their Rated R (chartreuse with gold shimmer and indigo with light blue shimmer) shadow set, and the Tropic (teal with intense, chunky sparkle) single. I've tried more in stores, but haven't been able to pony up the cash.
6. Stila
I have their Flashlight foundation, because it's the only thing Sephora had pale enough for me that didn't cost like $50. I also tried their Jewel Lip Glaze collection and the coordinating eyeshadow, and may try to coerce my mom into getting it for me as a Christmas present.
7. Naked
I first bought a set (Harvest Moon) at Premiere Birmingham 2008, and I loved it. I mostly got it because $15 for six colors is pretty great when it costs $50 on the website, and I didn't have any muted (sort of) greens, but there also was a bright copper with pink shimmer, sheer white with gold shimmer, and bright gold with bright green shimmer.
The next year, I bought SIX sets for my kit (about 80% is now in my personal collection). I also got a set of fifteen brushes in a roll-up, shadow primer, clear nail polish, and a pink lucite and metal case with a mirror inside. Well worth the money- the color payoff is great and it's lasting forever. I would certainly buy again, and I plan to.
8. Aromaleigh
I came to this brand late, and it's a shame that they're going out of business because I LOVE all the stuff I ordered. Most of it came from their Victoria's Revenge collection- Ruthless Indulgence, my favorite, a brownish-coal with silvery-pink and copper sparkles, Mayhem's Trilogy, green with green and platinum (not quite silver and not quite gold) sparkle, the perfect zombie green, Mourning's Whimsy, a neon purple with blue sparkles, Frigid Gloom, a beautiful sky blue with pink and silver sparkles, Oleander Vapor, a pale, mauve-ish pink with pink and purple sparkles, Bleeding Poppy, a dark, bloody red with green, blue, and silver sparkles, Apocalypse Pansy, basically the same as Bleeding Poppy but a deep plum, Brazen and Bitter, a pinkish-orange with pink, orange, green, and gold sparkles, and Splintered, a dark, silvery forest green with green and silver sparkles. I also ordered two of their Goth Lolita collection- Aqua Nightmare, a vibrant turquoise with blue sparkles, and Strawberry Despair, a muted, reddish, dusky pink with shimmer and faint pink sparkles. I have two shades from their Bete Noire collection- Jolie, a cool, dusky red with tons of sparkle that pairs well with Beauty Marked by MAC, and Darcelle, a golden olive with lots of blue and green sparkle. I wasn't as in love with their Retro-Futuristic matte shadows I got samples of, Radioactive, a cool, bright green, and Supermurgatroid, a bright orange, because the color payoff wasn't as good. But they're still lovely.
I know I wrote a novel, here, and there's a lot more makeup I haven't gotten to yet that I want very much to try, but there you go!
1. MAC
I know, I know, everybody and her grandma has at least one MAC thing they Can't Live Without, but I've fallen so in love with the few things I have that I actually want to work for this company. I'm trying to put together a portfolio to give them along with my resume. I have three eyeshadows: Beauty Marked, a brownish coal black with red sparkles, Idol Eyes, a silver with gold and violet shimmer, and, my favorite, Creme de Violet, a bright pinkish violet with gold sparkles. I also have Cyber, an extremely deep purple lipstick, and two Super Dazzleglass lip glosses in Cherry Electric, a bright pink with multicolored sparkles, and Fab Frenzy, a deep purple with multicolored sparkles. I haven't worn Cyber or Fab Frenzy yet, since they're not really good colors for summer and I bought them in June, but everything else I've worn with pride and I've been very happy with them.
Edit: I just bought the Viva Glam lipstick in Gaga and I LOVE it! It's such a pretty pink and it looks nice with my skin. I also got to look at the Fabulous Felines collection and saw a Dazzle lipstick that I liked (it was clear-ish and had iridescent glitter), and I'm signed up for a little Villainous Vixens demo!
2. Urban Decay
I'm a huge Urban Decay fan. The color payoff is always so great and they have some amazing products. My favorite thing is probably the Deluxe Eyeshadow in Graffiti- green is my favorite color next to black so you'll see a lot of it. Just a warning. Anyway, I've used their shadow primer and it was good, but the wand would get sort of grayish after a while (I don't always manage to get all my makeup off, but mostly what gets left is eyeliner and mascara smudges). The pallete, complete with a mini tube of primer and two half-sized eyeliner pencils, that I bought around Christmas was great to have- if I'm just going somewhere for one night (don't get any ideas), I'll just bring that, along with mascara, eyeliner, and a couple different kinds of lip things. Convenience is awesome.
3. Too Faced
I'll admit, I haven't used too much of this. The first time I ever tried it, I was in Birmingham with a friend for the hair show a year ago. She had their Glamour Revolution pallete and when we checked in, I took a shower and asked if she'd let me try on some of the colors because I was in love with it but I didn't have any money- I was unemployed and don't have a rich family like her. So she hands me the box, and I tried (and, eventually, bought) Label Whore, brown with blue and green shimmer and iridescent sparkles, with Neptune, shimmery bright teal, on top of it. I can't remember what I used on my brow bone, but it was a shimmery nude. Looked great with my Led Zeppelin shirt.
Since then, I've also tried their eyeshadow primer, which I love. I don't put on eyeshadow without it. It gives you a bit more control because it's in a squeeze tube and you can just spread it on your eyelids. I plan on trying more things later on- I almost bought some Lava Liner but didn't have $18 to spend (hooray, unemployment!) so I bought some at Target instead.
4. Mica Bella
For those who don't know, mostly these guys sell out of kiosks in the mall. I've bought four shadows- Daydream, my favorite, a sheer white with red, gold, pink, and orange shimmer, Royal, a deep, intense blue with purple shimmer, Patience, a plum with pinkish-purple and gold shimmer, and Indulgence, a super-sparkly silver. I also, at one time, had their foundation, but it was WAY too dark, even being their lightest shade, and their blush. So I passed those on to someone who could wear them and kept the eyeshadows.
5. NARS
Too expensive to buy all that often, but GORGEOUS. I have their Angel Heart blush and highlighter set, because it's light and I'm pale so I don't look like I got shot in the face with a paint gun when I wear it, their Rated R (chartreuse with gold shimmer and indigo with light blue shimmer) shadow set, and the Tropic (teal with intense, chunky sparkle) single. I've tried more in stores, but haven't been able to pony up the cash.
6. Stila
I have their Flashlight foundation, because it's the only thing Sephora had pale enough for me that didn't cost like $50. I also tried their Jewel Lip Glaze collection and the coordinating eyeshadow, and may try to coerce my mom into getting it for me as a Christmas present.
7. Naked
I first bought a set (Harvest Moon) at Premiere Birmingham 2008, and I loved it. I mostly got it because $15 for six colors is pretty great when it costs $50 on the website, and I didn't have any muted (sort of) greens, but there also was a bright copper with pink shimmer, sheer white with gold shimmer, and bright gold with bright green shimmer.
The next year, I bought SIX sets for my kit (about 80% is now in my personal collection). I also got a set of fifteen brushes in a roll-up, shadow primer, clear nail polish, and a pink lucite and metal case with a mirror inside. Well worth the money- the color payoff is great and it's lasting forever. I would certainly buy again, and I plan to.
8. Aromaleigh
I came to this brand late, and it's a shame that they're going out of business because I LOVE all the stuff I ordered. Most of it came from their Victoria's Revenge collection- Ruthless Indulgence, my favorite, a brownish-coal with silvery-pink and copper sparkles, Mayhem's Trilogy, green with green and platinum (not quite silver and not quite gold) sparkle, the perfect zombie green, Mourning's Whimsy, a neon purple with blue sparkles, Frigid Gloom, a beautiful sky blue with pink and silver sparkles, Oleander Vapor, a pale, mauve-ish pink with pink and purple sparkles, Bleeding Poppy, a dark, bloody red with green, blue, and silver sparkles, Apocalypse Pansy, basically the same as Bleeding Poppy but a deep plum, Brazen and Bitter, a pinkish-orange with pink, orange, green, and gold sparkles, and Splintered, a dark, silvery forest green with green and silver sparkles. I also ordered two of their Goth Lolita collection- Aqua Nightmare, a vibrant turquoise with blue sparkles, and Strawberry Despair, a muted, reddish, dusky pink with shimmer and faint pink sparkles. I have two shades from their Bete Noire collection- Jolie, a cool, dusky red with tons of sparkle that pairs well with Beauty Marked by MAC, and Darcelle, a golden olive with lots of blue and green sparkle. I wasn't as in love with their Retro-Futuristic matte shadows I got samples of, Radioactive, a cool, bright green, and Supermurgatroid, a bright orange, because the color payoff wasn't as good. But they're still lovely.
I know I wrote a novel, here, and there's a lot more makeup I haven't gotten to yet that I want very much to try, but there you go!
Evil Angel's Giveaway!
Some way-cool Goth and Steampunk-style accessories up for grabs! Check it out NOW!
Monday, September 6, 2010
Glitter is My Crack Giveaway!
http://themoonmaiden-blix.blogspot.com/2010/08/huge-giveaway.html
You should totally check out her blog, by the way. Lots of cool stuff on there.
You should totally check out her blog, by the way. Lots of cool stuff on there.
First Post
Hello all!
I've decided, since makeup is one of my greatest passions these days, that I would start a blog celebrating all the things that I love, from new styles I've developed to new products I'm trying to, possibly, a misguided foray into mixing my own cosmetics.
I will start by warning you- this is not makeup for the faint of heart. I love bright colors and sparkles and pretty things.
Later, I will post about the brands I like, the things I like about them, and guides to some looks I've worked out.
For now, though, I probably ought to get ready for bed, as it's past 2 A.M. Later!
I've decided, since makeup is one of my greatest passions these days, that I would start a blog celebrating all the things that I love, from new styles I've developed to new products I'm trying to, possibly, a misguided foray into mixing my own cosmetics.
I will start by warning you- this is not makeup for the faint of heart. I love bright colors and sparkles and pretty things.
Later, I will post about the brands I like, the things I like about them, and guides to some looks I've worked out.
For now, though, I probably ought to get ready for bed, as it's past 2 A.M. Later!
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